FML

So the one girl i actaully cared enough about to try and be with agian, blew me off sunday. She threw me some bullshit about not wanting a bf then 4 days later goes out with the ugliest mother fucker i have ever seen. She then precedes to tell me that she doesn't like me anymore even though for the last 6 months or so she has been saying that she still loved me and i was one of the few guys she actually loved. So what am i? I'm just that in-between kid that girls date till they find something better apperently. I hate being nice. I hate that i care so much about people then i alway's end up getting hurt in the end. Why do i seem to get tormented? why do i have to find the stupids girls to date then i really end up getting fucked over(and not the good kind) So now that i understand that theres nothing really here for me, im honestly contemplating moving, I need to find some where new where i dont have to be like some cold hearted bastard just to get through the day. I want somewhere where i can be myself and not have to worry about some girl fucking me over all the damn time.

I just don't understand, what i did to deserve to be treated like shit? anybody want to give me a best guess?

-alan-

p.s. any suggestions of were to move to?

fuck all this bullshit

So apperently im just not good enough for people to come hang out with, or even be remotely around. All my friends are just gone. I dont have any. I sit alone all day, and theres just nothing left of anything that i think about. Nothing, is a good word for how i feel anymore, i guess you could call it a empty feeling but even then i dont think i could describe it just right. Im just a unfeeling bastard apperently, nobody wants to be around me, nobody calls, and nobody texts me, I know im sounding emoish right now but fuck people, fuck my life, fuck my job and most importantly fuck this little hick town of ohio. Im sick of fucking everything, people, not having friends, not having money, my car acting up, everything i cant have a normal fucking day. Sooo Heres my statement.

FUCK YOU!!!!!!! to the world.

If i get a chance to move, ill probabaly take it, theres nothing here for me, so why the fuck not.